Living Life on Life's Terms

Gosh time flies.... alot has happened in 2 years. I have had alot of difficulties...bliss has evaded me for 2010 and just coming round the corner now. I have worked seriously hard on my program and with my doctor to sort out med adjustments and learn how to cope with life while mentally compromised AND stay clean and sober. If it weren't for my program/spirituality/and family and friends or I may not have come through this clean and sober. Year 4 has provided me with much uncomfortable growing up...dad having a heart attack/quadruple bipass, brother slipping,moving twice, my meds all out of wack, AND aquiring a new puppy! OMG what a year....however, in two weeks I will be coming up to a 5 year cake and I am SO full of love and gratitude for the life and sobriety I enjoy today. There is much work to be done as of course I am a work in progress but I feel and see the light again and look forward to finding bliss in daily life again.

Rough Days..

Family of origin for me is my greatest challenge. I think I regress no matter what wisdom I practice in day to day life it seems to disappear in moments of discomfort with family. Bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....I feel like screaming and also wonder if progress is even present. In moments like this I resort to prayer, and LOTS of it. I also share with other friends in recovery, this makes me feel like I am not alone. Sometimes for me I just need to read....this is my own private therapy, I love it and find serenity in a good book. Today is just one day, tomorrow is fresh and new. Sammi

In Awe of nature...

Wow, I have never heard thunder and lightening ALL night long before. It kept me awake but my gratitude to be a part of this spectacular display with sound mind was awesome. Myself and Honeybear just snuggled tight and listened to the grandness of nature in action. This for me is such an easy way to see that there is something MUCH bigger than I and helps keep me humble. Practicing meditation and humility is so much easier for me in the midst of nature. Sometimes it is as simple as taking a moment to enjoy the great wonders of our beautiful world to stay present and grateful. Sammi

We are not Alone...

Staying connected...spiritually, with support groups, friends and family. My level of connectedness is key in keeping my enthusiasm alive during the day. Isolation is not an option, although the trickery of it's beauty is sometimes deceiving. There is a huge misconception of a quiet time and massive isolation. Watch carefully~ as I too need to be conscious of how much alone time I spend...it can be addictive and dangerous....Alone we are in scary company! Sammi

First Day June 28th

I am new to the blog...however my passion in life is passing a message of hope, inspiration, and most of all recovery. So, an epiphany today...."Do a Blog" lol, my clarity this Sunday morning is as sure as my gratitude for the day. It is a short message as I am a bit daunted by the whole thing already.......Just do the next right thing. Sammi